I haven't written in a super long time, so I thought I would. Its good for me to write.
Okay so... since I last wrote, I have moved (just to Rohnert Park, only 10 mins or so from previous residence), I did "The Master Cleanse" (ugh), aaaand I have gained 20 pounds from my all time lowest weight, which was 121 exactly on the last day of the cleanse on February 10th. Granted, my new heavy weigh-in was after dinner in the evening (which is the worst TOD to weigh oneself, in my oppinion) but 140.6 was the number on the scale.
Some of my clothes are too small. I don't have as much energy. I just don't feel as good or as happy with how I look. So I have to stop kidding myself and get back to it. I will always have my old habits. It requires a daily commitment to prevent overeating, sticking to my planned meals and making healthy choices in order to hit goals and maintain my weight and health. Moving was hard... I honestly lost count of how many doughnuts I ate that day. (It was over 10 though... ssshhh...)
And then, once we settled in, I HAVE MY OWN FREAKING KITCHEN OMG!! Pink Cinnamon Rolls, a Double Chocolate Cake, Garlic Rosemary Bread, grilled chicken thighs with Raspberry Chipotle Sauce, White Rice etc etc are some of the things to come out of said kitchen, so far. And moving out, OF COURSE we had to celebrate! A few bottles of wine and a few packs of beers have been consumed in the (just over a) month that we've been there. (Not just by me, but even when you share, this lifestyle is fattening)
Well I ain't ever going back to where I used to be. 140 pounds isn't bad, still considered a "normal" weight for a chica my hight, but I don't feel happy, free or healthy at this weight. I estimate it should take about 12 weeks to get down to goal, when done healthily (2lbs per week average) so I'm making my Husband Daniel's birthday (June 21st) my goal day. Its almost 13 weeks away, but a great day to pick. I started yesterday. Goal weight: 120lbs. I know how my body looks at that weight, and I think if I put on enough muscle, I could have a 6-pack around that number. Granted, it IS NOT all about a number on the scale... but since I have been so involved with all of this for almost 2 years now, I know my body really well, and know what numbers correspond to what I see in the mirror.
Speaking of the whole "number on the scale doesn't matter" I'm taking a break from doing dietbets for a while. I got too obsessed. I'm in 3 6-month games I have to finish (they end in June) but after that, I need to stop. Dietbet is a great weight loss tool, but *for me* it got to be too much.
Now about that Master Cleanse... I lost 14 pounds in 10 days. (Not healthy unless you are class 2 obese). I think it is a good jumpstart weightloss program and it works wonders for almost everyone who completes it, but I think for me, it just isn't the best. Yes I lost weight. But I was so weak for weeks after. It was a HUGE setback in my fitness, ultimately. I couldn't run. I could hardly bend down and pick something up without feeling like I was going to pass out (yes I should have drank more of the "lemonade" the day before, but that is easier said than done!!) If you don't know what I'm talking about, google it. Basically, for 10 days you drink 10-18 cups of this lemonade you make with 1 oz of fresh squeezed lemon juice, 2 tbsp grade B or C organic maple syrup and about 1/10th of a tsp of cayenne pepper (or as much as you can stand). You add all that to 8oz pure water and there's one drink. 10 days. Of that. You also have to do some "fun" salt water flush thingies and/or take a laxative. Because as you can imagine... not eating any solid food would cause things to um... "slow down" a bit, and you can get very ill from toxins building up in your body. Anywhooooo... my personal theory is that since I was already pretty small, and my body had kinda been in "weight loss" mode for so long, I didn't bounce back well. I felt ravenous for week. That fabled "starvation mode"... it does exist. Let me tell you... man. The good: skin was clearer. Oh and now, I can't eat too much junk food without feeling very sick to my stomach. But all in all... I don't think I'll ever do it again ahahahahaha.
Running has slowed down. I want to do the same 10k's and half marathons as last year. But I don't have as much time to train. The past 2 weeks now I've worked over 50 hrs each. Try and balance moving, toddler, needing of sleep and wanting to hangout with your hubby and you don't run that much haaaa. But I'm not stopping. Just might not bring home any 1st, 2nd or 3rd places this year haha. That's ok though. I just like running, and races are a blasty blast.
Weigh-ins will be done Saturday mornings. I'm considering writing weekly and posting results. I want to track my measurements again too. I'll take 'em soon. So there we go. I'm back in the game. Not really "the fat girl working out" again but I don't feel like the Tigress Athlete I had going for awhile there. Suuuucks. Ugh. Gotta get up, dust myself off and try again
Its only 12 weeks! First day of summer, hubbie's birthday, its gonna be awesome!
