Well I am less than thrilled with today's weigh in, but I'm not surprised. I had several cheat days last weekend and was over my calorie goal most days this week. I don't know why but it has been hard to stay on track this week. That old overeating monster is rearing its big ugly face again.
Last week's weight: 147.8
Today's: 147.0
Lost .8 pounds... not the kind of numbers I need to see in order to hit my goal. It really sucks. But I'm lucky I lost weight at all! I gotta keep my head up and look how far I've come! 25 pounds lost in 76 days! So with that, time to dust myself off, learn from my mistakes and press on. I have a big party to go to soon and I vow to stay on goal today.
Thoughts of the week:
Its all about thrift stores for me right now! I'm on my way, and some of my smaller clothes are too big now. I got like 8 new tshirts and a couple new pairs of shorts at the gooodwill store, all for like 30 bucks. That's wassup!! No way am I gonna pay for new clothes that I will probably only be able to wear for a month. I'm gonna ask for giftcards this christmas and for my birthday so that when I DO get down to my goal weight, I will treat myself to some new tiny clothes!
I will be packing up my "fat clothes" soon and storing them for next time I'm pregnant.
My bones are a lot more prominent lately. Which makes sense, but it never occured to me that that would happen. I feel bad for Hailie, she layes her head on my shoulders and I can feel my bones digging into her face! My wrists and hands are more bony, feet, knees... and I can see a lot more definition in my legs lately. Its like "Whoa, I have some muscles under there!!"
Pretty cool.
This past week I have really been doing better at strength training. I'm behind schedule for beating my sister Bella at pushups, but slow progress is still progress! I can do 3 now :D
I've started lifting weights a few times a week. I loooove feeling sore! Then I know I did a good job working out! I really wanna bulk up my upper body. I have wimpy arms. I really do. I would love some defined, "tank top" arms, so I'm going for it and getting them. Still doing lots of squats. I can do 70 now. After my challenges are over, I'm gonna focus on more weight and less reps in order to bulk up a little.
Something I wondered would happen to me is the dreaded "loose skin" that you can have after a big weight loss. I was afraid of it happening to me. The only loose skin I have is on my stomach. But the more fat I lose, the less everything sags. It really isn't very bad at all. I have stretch marks. They have faded a lot. I know I will never have a stunning, gorgeous set of 6-pack abs. I might have a 6-pack, but it will probably have loose wrinkly skin and stretch marks. But you know what? That's ok. Who cares?? They are my battle scars of pregnancy haha. Hailie is worth it all. And I would have had the stretch marks AND a big belly still if I continued to let my fear of saggy skin deter me from losing weight.
It was just another excuse. One of the many. I realized... I didn't really want to lose weight. If I really had wanted to, I would. When you really want something, you make it happen. I decided I wanted to lose weight. Where there's a will, there's a way. I figured out how much I wanted and needed to lose, figured out how much time was a reasonable amount in order to accomplish said weight loss, and commited to that goal. Weight loss takes real true commitment. When you fall down, you get back up. You stick to it like glue. Even when it sucks. And it really will. It takes real, true, hardcore commitment. And with that comes will power.
Time for a progress pic!
9/27/13, 152.4 lbs:
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