Mission Accomplished :)

You guys, I did it!! I DID IT!

it took 124 days. Running over 314 miles. (That doesn't include the miles I have walked)

Counting almost every calorie. I have lost 37.6 pounds and finally hit my goal! OMG!

There it is my friends, 135 pounds, right on the money this morning! I did it!! 

as for measurements:

Last week:                Today:

Arms 10.5"                 10.5"

Waist 29.75"              29.5"

Hips 35.5"                  34.5"

Thighs 22"                 22"

Calves 14.25"            14.25"

In case anyone questions whether or not I did it healthily, I lost an average of 2.12 pounds per week... which is a little more than recommended, but I started at an obese weight and it came off really quickly in the beginning, before I even started blogging. I ate on average, 1400 calories a day. Exercised a minimum of 4 days a week. I used the C25K program (apps available) to get into running. I went from barely being able to jog for 60 seconds without being out of breath, to being able to run 5K (3.11 miles) in 27:11 (yep, new PR last Saturday!)

Believe me, I get all my vitamins and minerals, meet my macros, and I feel amazing. my nails are healthier and grow faster. my hair is long, full and shiny. I have lots of muscle (and am working on building more now!)

It also is worth mentioning that i have continued to successfully nurse Hailie throughout this whole weight loss journey. If I wasn't eating enough for my body needs, that wouldn't have worked.

I have more energy than I know what to do with. I have no problem getting on the floor and playing with my little 1 year old daughter for however long she wants. I'm not done yet. I can weigh as little as 108 pounds and still be considered "normal" and healthy. I'm probably not going to get down that low ever, but I'm thinking of shooting for the 100-and-teens. 

Here's a couple screenshots from my weight-tracking app today:

As you can see, the weight came off really fast at first, and then everything settled into a pretty steady pace. 

For now, I have a few more days of my diet bet games... I needed to be 137.3 in order to win, and I have surpassed that. So a few more days of maintaining or losing more and then I will enjoy some Christmas treats (in moderation!) enough to maintain my weight. After New Year's, I will start Operation Six-Pack! haha. I don't know what that would look like, seeing as I have stretch marks and loose stomach skin. But I will try to get as close as I can. Don't know what that weight would be, but there is still a good layer of blubber over my stomach. Won't be very hard. I'm going to try to lose at a slower rate though, It has been coming off faster than I want, for the past week. My goal now is to be, look, and feel FIT. not skinny, but fit. 

The above picture is me at the start... about 172 pounds. Obese. Unhappy. Lying to myself about my body. And the picture on the right is today. 135 and i feel 100% different.

I used to avoid ever getting on the scale. I would tell myself I wasn't really that fat. I made jokes about my stomach. I hated how I felt though. I had to get honest, buckle down and just do it. It was really hard sometimes. You guys have been reading this most of the time. I battled myself more than anything. There were nights when I REALLY wanted to stuff my face. My stomach can be a bottomless, black hole of a pit. This is not over. Reaching my goal is by no means a license to go back to the way things were. granted, I DO have to eat more calories in order to stop losing weight, but I will gain it all back if I stop eating healthy and clean. Those old habits are right there waiting for me to let my guard down. I will NEVER weigh that much again!! (unless I'm actually pregnant... then it is possible.)

Definitely won't get up to the previous highest pregnancy weight of 205 pounds. 

One thing I just have to write about... a couple times I have felt bad about writing all this thinking of readers who are bigger than my biggest... I have been afraid that they read it and criticize me for feeling too fat when I'm so much smaller than them. I have been afraid that they would say to me "yeah right, you don't know what its like to REALLY be fat." I know I may not have ever been SUPER fat, but medically I WAS OBESE. Not morbidly, but still. For me personally, it was too much. For me personally, I still have too much fat on my stomach. Everyone's journey is different. I want to be here for anyone and anyone looking for support or a way out. I lost just shy of 40 pounds. in almost 5 months. Maybe you weigh WAYYYY more than I ever did, and feel like its impossible. Don't buy in to the message that losing weight is impossible. I DID it! most of my readers actually KNOW ME. They have seen it all in person! I am surprised that I have really done it. I really am... because I used to believe it wasn't really possible. "I just can't seem to ever lose this weight!" I'd seen other people do it, and wish it was me. WISH NO MORE, PEOPLE. YOU CAN DO IT. I'm gonna pay it forward, and if anyone wants help, I will help!! Message me on facebook, or email me at dalahshawty@yahoo.com and I will do my best to help you. I can give you personalized calorie goals, workout schedules, meal plans, all the support you need, whatever it is. I'm serious, I feel so amazing, I long for everyone struggling with their weight to feel this way!! Now I see people at the store, or wherever and I see myself in their shoes. The old me. and I know how to help now! I know how to lose all that extra weight! Hopefully I don't sound cocky or conceited, like I'm "so smart" or "so cool" or something. I'm just really honestly SO excited about all of this. Please know, my heart is never to judge or anything... because I HAVE BEEN THERE. Not having anything to wear because I have grown out of all my clothes. Not caring anymore. I have been there. But I found the way out, and I can help you get out too! It takes a hell of a lot of commitment, but just about anyone can do it. 

I will write again with a weigh-in on Christmas Eve, because that was my goal date, and I want to see what I really weigh on that day. Thank you for following me on this journey, all the supportive comments have helped me more than you guys know. There were days I wanted to just give up, eat a ton of food, whatever and I thought of all my readers who are rooting for me, and who would have to know I failed. It helped to write about all of this so much. You guys have helped me reach this goal. my BMI is now 23.9 (Healthy) and I started at 30.5 (Obese). Talk to you all on Christmas EVE!!

Mind Over Matter

I've been realizing more and more how weight loss is mostly a mental battle. A battle to make yourself workout. Then workout harder. Resist that second or third helping of the lasagna. Eat fruit for snacks. Eat veggies. Lean proteins. Good complex carbs. Think of food as fuel. Nourish your body instead of pleasing the palette. (Not that healthy food isn't good!)
Challenge yourself and you might see how much more you can do!
Release your strength. Stop holding yourself back. Decide to do something and just do it! Those moments when you feel like quitting are the moments that you need to push yourself harder. Raise the bar. Literally go that extra mile.

I feel back on track mentally now since a few days ago. That drive and happy excited feeling is back. I'm really doing this...! I'm over halfway to my goal!
I remember it clicking that I CAN weigh 135 lbs. I have no physical restrictions (well except asthma, but I fought through it!), no dietary restrictions like food allergies... this is my life and I'm taking control, damn it! I was choosing to weigh what I did, with every bite I took. I had been believing these lies that I couldn't do it and "its so hard to be a mom and lose weight!" Or "I guess I'm just destined to be a bigger girl!" Nope. I can be healthy. I can be fit! You know how cool it is to know that if I needed to, I could run for several miles without stopping!? (Insert zombie apocolypse reference here) Me... who just a few months ago would get winded running halfway around the block. Its a pretty cool feeling. I feel stronger. More powerful. More confident. I highly recommend it. ;)

Last week I weighed in at 149.4 lbs. And this week... come to find, I've lost a whopping 1.6 lbs! I'm 147.8 lbs! Been kicking butt! I'm surprised, there were some days where I went over my calorie goal by a couple hundred. Still though... this is so cool! These are the kind of numbers I need to be putting up in order to meet my goal on time.

Running this week has been great with my new inhaler! I feel a little nerdy using it, but hey... being able to breathe effortlessly while running is so worth it! I didn't realize how bad it was until I ran without asthma symptoms. It was amazing... it was exhilarating! I could take huge gulps of air! For once I could actually challenge my muscles! I wasn't wasting all this extra energy, heaving and using so much strenth to suck in the little air I was able to, over and over! With that, I noticed my muscles tired out faster... I was suddenly able to push myself more and didn't take it slow enough... plus i killed my hamstrings and glutes doing dumbbell deadlifts on wednesday. As a result, I wound up having to walk some parts of my runs and didn't PR right away like I'd hoped, but I have high expectations for tomorrow's run!

I also got new shoes this week! I am so excited! They are Asics again. I looove Asics. Feels like running on clouds (for me haha). And I got some really good socks. I felt absolutely zero pain in my blister zones. So that is awesome!

I'm really looking forward to the holidays! Hopefully I'll see some relatives that I haven't seen since 4th of July, right before I got serious about weight loss and I'm hoping to blow them away! They are rarely on facebook so I doubt they've seen any pics or read any of my blogs... its gonna be fun! And all the holiday pictures will be fun! I won't be cringing inside, trying to hide behind people haha.

My game plan for surviving those extra holiday calories: only allow myself to cheat on the actual holiday. (Except halloween, I won't binge on candy because I have a race two days after, and I want my body primed and fueled right!)

So Thanksgiving day: I will endulge.

Christmas eve: I will endulge in the evening because I consider this day part of Christmas. And hopefully I will have met my goal and will have some celebrating to do!

Christmas day: I will definitely endulge.

All of this won't be over once I've met my goal. I will set a new goal. Most likely it will be to get down to 125 lbs and pack on some muscle! And not to mention the fact that if I ever decide "I'm done" the weight will come back. I will obviously be able to eat more once I'm just maintaining my weight, but I can never go back to the way I used to eat. Why on earth would I want to, anyway?? I feel amazing, my self-esteem and confidence is up, everything is getting better and better!
Here's to another week of hard work paying off! Its all mind over matter!

Chuggin' along

Results are in! Last week I was 150.8 lbs and today I am 149.4!! -1.4 pounds lost! Woooohooooo I'm in the 140's!! Its been 7 years since I was here! It feels incredible! And I am surprised! 

Not sure why, but most of this week I almost felt like giving up. Been battling a lot of cravings and stuff. (See, Its not all easy and all smiles!) Like on Tuesday i seriously wanted to go get and eat an entire pepperoni pizza with the pepper flakes and parmesan. Not even kidding.

I've been trying to figure it all out. I just don't feel like counting calories and planning workouts. Its like extreme laziness or something has set in. It has become work this week. Its like its not as fun lately.
I am staying strong though. Haven't cheated at all. For some reason I felt like I wasn't gonna lose any weight this week. I think maybe because my heart wasn't in it as much? Also since I've added in some abs, pushups and squats routines I was afraid I was gonna gain a bunch of muscle, which is great, but it might not have looked good on the scale. I need to remember its NOT all about some number on a scale, but rather how I look and if I'm losing inches. Still though, I'm hoping it will all boost my metabolism enough for it not to matter, and that I'll still continue to lose more poundage.
Make no mistake about it, I'm not backing down! Just have felt a little down in the dumps the past few days.

And now I have some news: as of today I was officially diagnosed with exercise induced asthma (which I suspected for awhile now). They are pretty sure it was caused by all the secondhand cigarette smoke I'm exposed to from my mother in law. My symptoms had been getting steadily worse the past few weeks. I kept fighting through it thinking it was just cause I was pushing myself and I'm still out of shape. But, it really is asthma. Gotta go pick up an inhaler now.

Despite all of that, I had a new 5k PR this week! My new time is 31:57 haha. Yay for 15 seconds faster! But I need to shave practically 2 minutes off my time in just 3 and a half weeks if I want to meet my goal of running my 5k in 30:00 or less on November 2nd in the Run Or Dye race here in town. That's right, I'm in!! My awesome friend Hali is sponsoring me! I'm officially registered now! It is such a blessing! This will be my first official sports event I've ever participated in! I am nervous already! And I'm hoping I'll get enough race day adrenaline to get me to reaching my goal! That combined with a few puffs of Albuterol and I should be golden :D Now I just need some new running shoes. Planning to go on Monday to Fleet Feet so I'll have a couple weeks still to break them in!

Fun Fact: the Women's 5k
world record time is 14:12!!! Daaaaaang!!

I'm officially fitting into size 6 jeans now! I can't remember the last time I was this tiny! Still some chubbs to get rid of but I am closer to the finish line with every day that goes by!

Its weird to be getting skinnier. I feel so light and free and little! 3 months ago I felt trapped. Felt this heavy fat clinging to me and weighing me down. You know what I realized today?! I have lost Hailie's current weight now! Ha! That's crazy. Puts it in perspective! I was carrying that much extra weight around all the time!! But here I am. Running 5k, 4 times a week, 1300 nutrient dense calories a day and the weight is just falling off. It really is as simple as that. Takes a few minutes of simple math to figure out what your calorie numbers are and then its just science..  the weight WILL

come off! Calories in, calories out!

Here is some of what inspired me and kept me going, this past week:

Aaand here's a side by side comparison of my before and *during* ;)